I see a world beyond the clouds,
a world that is free from the proud,
a world not built on shame,
a world that does not feed on pain,
I see a world that rests in peace,
a world not fighting to know,
rather a world that looks to show,
the creativity of man is all on display,
as the heart lifts
the clouds drift away,
worlds merge into one,
as the Glory is revealed in the Son.
Am I too comfortable with God?
Am I taking advantage of His Presence in my life?
There was a time where all I did was seek God. Literally all I did. At the time I knew nothing about grace. I was not drawn to God for his unconditional love towards me. I was drawn to Him because I was in need of Him. I still need God, but it is different now. Back then I felt if I did not do then He would turn His back on me. I was caught up in the acts of self righteousness. I did and I felt loved. When I made a mistake I was not loved in my mind. So I took everything out of my life that did not reflect what I thought God to be. I turned from my "sinful" desires and did what was "holy". But then I met Grace.
When I met Grace I found a God that loved me not for what I did but for who I am. I am a child of God and nothing can separate me from His presence. In the process of learning of His love I fell deeper in love with God. It was not about what He was doing in my life anymore it was about what He already done. I was hungry for God's presence. I wanted my day to be filled with God speaking to me. If I am honest I have lost touch of that desire. I take advantage of the fact that God loves me unconditionally. I know He will never leave me, so I don't have to work on my relationship with Him. I know He knows everything about me. I know He loves me, so I just do as I please. The problem is not God's love for me it is my love for Him. I say I love God yet I don't turn to Him unless I have a request. I have lost that passion to talk to God about everything. I listen but not to Him but to myself. My voice has drowned out His, but I am not happy. I miss my time with God. I miss hearing Him through life experiences. I miss talking to Him. Like a college kid missing the comfort of their parents presence. I desire God. I don't want to pour out my gifts and be left empty. I want to be filled by the power of His spirit.
What I am saying is I don't want to feed on the life of others like a zombie. I want to live off the presence of God. My prayer is to wake up. Only in God are we awake. In everything I experience, I want to experience with God. I have been lost but now I am found. I was sleep, now I am awake. I was blind now I see. Speak Lord, I am listening.
Let us wake to the Presence of God and living as only we can. God bless you.
Until next time...
Surrounded by rain,
Saturated by love,
the drops greet,
inviting love to take a seat,
giving space for,
The One and the heart to meet.