Wow!! I did not start this day off right. It is crazy how the smallest thing can trigger such a big reaction. Sometimes it is not about starting over but rather moving forward. It is about not letting things get to you in a way that they cause you to live in anger. As quick as the moment of anger comes it can leave the same way. I can’t change what has been said or done but I can change how I respond to it and learn from my mistakes. I choose to move forward, realizing that even in spite of my imperfections, I am loved and that I can love. I want to take my negativity and pursue something positive.
With Open Arms
As I slip into deep sleep.
My mind ponders the events that just happened.
Could it possibly be any worse?
All that I have been is lost in a moment.
All that I have possessed taken in an instant.
Is this the end?
Will I live again?
Will I be released from the sleep that has captured me?
If I could just live again.
I would be different and not conform to the world that I just left.
As I reflect on who I was.
I realize that who I have been is not who I am.
The life that I lived was no more than a mask covering the real me.
What has happened was not to kill me but to reveal me.
When I played football in high school. There were a lot of guys that talked about how good they were and if they wanted to they could to this and do that. The problem was they never even joined the team. They sat in the stands watching us play but never experienced the game themselves.
I don’t want to be “all talk”. There is a saying: “Don’t talk about it, be about it”. I am learning that it really is hard to be about what you talk about. But I am embracing the challenge because I want to “be in the game” not just “watch the game”.
What we want means nothing until you put “weight” on your thoughts.
I am learning to keep my mouth shut about what I am going to do until I actually start doing it.
Until next time.
Letting go of things is hard but holding onto them can be deadly. It does not matter if it is a relationship or a career change. Letting go of your world to create a new one is not easy, but it is necessary to move forward.
Many people hope for big changes in their life but are not willing to let go of who they’ve been. You can’t receive change, if your hands are full. Seasons changes and though a tree looks amazing during the fall they become bare in the winter. Their bareness is necessary for new growth. I am learning to embrace bareness for with it brings new growth, new experiences, new perspectives and a new life.
I can’t give up on my dream.
It is greater than just me.
I have to keep pushing forward.
No matter the resistance,
No matter the temptations,
I can’t waste my time living in “what if”,
My opportunity is now.
I will not be afraid anymore.
I will embrace my dream.
I choose to live not simply exist.
Everyone has opinions on how you are suppose to live.
“Don’t eat that, Don’t wear that, Don’t listen to that, Don’t read that, Don't write that.”
It is not that I don’t listen to wise advice because I do. It is that most advice I hear is fear based. I don’t want to live in anyone's box of fear. I meet people that are confused on what they are supposed to do in their life because someone told them what they loved to do was not good enough.
The great thing about life is that no matter what has been said that we followed, we have the opportunity to change our mind. The uncommon voice that speaks leads us to truth about ourselves. It inspires us to be better than we have been. It pushes us to workout when we want to be lazy. It encourages us to pursue our dreams, when we want to quit. Happiness awaits our acceptance of who we are. When we follow our heart we discover a love that brings life to us. By letting go of the other voices we can hear the voice that speaks within our heart. The voice that leads us to living a life full of purpose.
Until next time...