Psalm 91:4 (KJV) He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust : his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.
Years ago, I was up late with my newborn baby girl. She could not seem to get comfortable at all. As I tried to help her she would fight with me. Finally I pressed her close to my chest right under my arm and she was in "heaven." She quit moving and went to sleep. As I watched her sleep in my arms. I thought, is this what I do with God? Yes, I fight trying to find a place of comfort but as I search for the right spot I don't realize that I am fighting against my Father.
God is trying to place me in position so that I can rest. He wants me to have peace but I don't like what I am going through so I try to fight my way out. The way out is in His arms. God like I did, places us close to His heart so that we can feel His warmth and take rest. His love puts us to sleep. As we sleep, we have no worries and no pain. We live in peace, as God works on our behalf.
I want to encourage you to stop fighting and surrender your life into the arms of God. Let Him position you close to His Heart that you may find rest. Realize that He is with you every step of the way and when things get difficult, don't fight just surrender to Him.